hateful confession

Well, Hell has frozen over. The Eagles have gone to the super bowl. I therefore, refuse to watch that game. What the hell is goin on??? I mean, the Red Sox win the World Series, the Eagles are in the Super bowl, Am I missing something? Hell, Bush got reelected, so I mean, I think things are going downhill Really really fast. Damn, my worst nightmare has begun. Can you imagine??? Eagles fans everywhere, and with a purpose! Damn them DAmn them ALLLLL!!! I am so pissed off that tears are forming in my eyes, and these are tears of sadness, tears of anger, tears of IT'S JUST NOT FAIR!!! The Bills should be there, Damn those Eagles, I hate them so much. Shootoidz, I am really saddened by this. I want to go over the walt whitman and like, smack an Eagles fan (and run like hell) Hey! that freak across the street likes the smeagles, so I can smack that loser. Yes, of course, he's a big guy who like, scares me, and he laughed when I forgot my key and had to climb into my window, he is SO rude!!!
I hate the EAgles, my dumb family is watching that crap on TV as I type these painful words, damn them too shoot! I am SO freakin pissed, damn eagles. I hope they lose, but let's keep it real, they're gonna win, freaks. BS I say, BS!!!!

Snowy Confession

Greetings all! It's snowing big time outside! oh and the fire trucks are across the street. Why I dont know, I can't see anything. Ohs well. Anyway, I have been up all day and stuff, boy am I drowsy. I slept in the car, and that was ok, but snow is scary. They said like 10-15 inches, and I think we have like a foot outside now. I'm SO HAPPY!!! yeah, and I was supposed to go to work tomorrow, but the snow got me a break. I'm happy about that too. So tomorrow I am gonna sleep all day, since my sister doesnt have basketball practice and I dont have work, only problem is my dad and mom will be home. No offense, but they irk me. Get on my LAST nerve. really they do. I can't cough wrong without them hassling me. god Forbid I come home late from school, Pregnancy tests will be awaiting me. and I'm a lazy cow, ya heard! Oh but back to the snow...
I want to go play but it's cold out and im sickly now. ever since the twins went away i have been getting sick a lot. I think they protected my lungs or something. hmm, i should ask my doctor about this new thought. Indeed I shall.
My mom is SO lazy, she won't cook dinner and when we all decided to eat snacks for dinner (all I really wanted was some nachos and brownies, sheesh) she got mad. She was sleep all day and I mean I'm a lazy cow and why should I work too hard? Shootoids.
I have taking a liking to nacho cheese. (mild of course) I can eat that stuff with anything, oh yeah! pretzels are the best in my opinion. I mean, when I decided that I was craving nachos my mom bought them (she wasnt cooking so I mean really...) mmm I want some now. I guess I should go make them, since I dont trust my grubby-handed sisters. Until I write again...

Eid Confession

Eid Mubarak! This has got to be the DRIEST eid on record for me. I did absolutely NOTHING. I mean, I went to the prayer this morning and came home, that' it. Oh, I went to the library too, I hate that place, it's so stupid. but that's for another confession...
So I am feeling really sad and depressed. I know it's supposed to be a joyful day, but I feel like crying. I know why, but this time, I have a new reason. See, I have been doing a lot of thinking and I have realized my "best friends" are more like enemies to me. I mean, we have always had a weird friendship where we cuss each other and all, but lately, they've been attacking my character and calling me immature WAY too much. I am like 5 seconds from beating this one girl to smitherines! Okay, maybe I'm just moody, but still, I'm sick of that bitch callin me up leaving nasty messages on my voicemail and stuff, yet I'M the immature one. She's the married slut who is still trying to pick up guys. I mean, I have her secrets, why is she being so mean to me? The cow! Of course, we've been through a lot, me and her, perhaps she is the one going through something hardcore and I should remain a good loyal friend. It HAS been like, nearly 10 years or something odd what we've known each other, and she was there to help me get over Tyler (that horrible thing...) She has helped me out loads of times, so yeah, I am gonna help that cow get over whatever SHE's going through. Hey! maybe one of her lovers left her or some craziness! hmm, I should call her tonight, to tell her Eid greetings and that goodness and get the dirt... Poor her, InshaAllah, things are okay with her, maybe she gave up her horrible ways and is going through withdrawal (or however you spell it). I am gonna call her now actually. Eid Mubarak Yall!

annoyed confession

Hi! I am SO annoyed. See, It's SO cold out, and I can't seem to warm up. I tried tea, coffee, cocoa, nothing works. I'm wearing like 2 layers of clothes... (I can't find my tamagotchi...) I'm wearing stockings, which I used to NEVER wear, but I wear them a lot these cold days. What's happening to me? I used to be the kid who would run outside in the snow in a t shirt, now I can't run to the car without freezing! So so sad.
Oh, my cousin Cliff wrote me a letter. Basically telling me he'll make dua for me, but that I need to stop dreaming. I guess he's right, but I'm a dreamer. I'm not the only one. I hope someday you'll join us and the world will live as one. (or whatever.) Ok, so I'm a crazy lennon quoter wannabe, got beef? eat chicken. don't like that? try boca, it's quite tasty. I'm seriously silly. and I get annoyed easily. My moods change so much that I cry while I laugh. I'm serious. Once, I was hanging out with my peeps and I was crying and they were like, you're weird yo, but I mean, what was I to do? Anyway, so Cliff is my older cuz, like a brother. he said that he has to know any potential I have, but why is it that I have to get my 2 cousin's approval? (adrian and clifton are brothers...) True I was the first girl and all that goodness but shoot they gots kids and I don't so I should be able to choose who I like. Though they both kinda said Tyler was a loser... Hmm, maybe I should listen to them, but it's just not fair! Aw hell, ain't nothin fair in life these days.
My mom is making me go OUTSIDE in the FREEZING COLD to get her purse. HOW INSENSITIVE TO MY FREEZINGNESS!!! Oh well, I better do it, so I'm off. Until I confess again...

baby confession

Hi all! I can't believe Eid is coming up. It seems like I just went through the depression of the last one, you know? Anyway, my dad said it was friday but NOW he's saying Thursday. AHHH! No worries, I gotta outfit to wear, I'm not going anywhere neat, nobody interesting will see me so there is no need to wear any makeup, thus, I will not. Still, I need to find a husband and going places where there are no potentials makes that pretty hard, you know? I mean, the Eid is a Muslim event, so I should be able to find a potential there, but there are never any REAL potentials there, totally SUCKS!!
Okay, I am calm. I am SO totally craving munchos. but anyway. Last night was Meet your muslim neighbor night. I went to see my friends, but I saw this girl who I haven't seen in like a year! she has a baby now and all that goodness. I mean, I Love babies! I want one SO badly, It's like, is there a store I can buy one from? I love holding them, babies love me, and I love them. Kids are a totally different story, they like me and I tolerate them. Man, I need to get married like al AN because I want kids. Maybe I can adopt one, but they'll never hand a kid over to a single woman who lives with her parents. Blastedness!

addiction confession

Okay, this is a REAL confession of near insanity (not totally for real though) I am addicted to Bridges TV. I LOVE it. The shows are cheesy and all that good stuff, and I know it, but I really love that channel. I can sit and watch it ALL DAY LONG. give me some munchos, islamica and bridges, and Im all set. It's crazy! I mean, that's not even my type of TV, but I've been watching it nearly non-stop.
speaking of munchos... I want some SO BAD!! I have a serious craving for them, but then, if it's not pills, it's munchos I guess. They are like, the bestest food on earth! eating them is like the best thing in the world I think, but I have to have them with the right drink. It used to be the Energy drink by snapple, but now, I am like totally addicted to nantucket something or another's pomegrante& pear. Oh MAN! that and some munchos, and then, you gotta have some cherry pull-n-peel twizzlers, THAT's a meal there. (and I wonder why I'm SO freakin fat ya know?)
About my weight... I have decided to let it be. When I diet, I gain weight, but when I don't I lose inches. I have my Gym membership so it's all good. I lost weight so I can fit into some of my old jeans and skirts, I was so happy man! now, if my pretty prommy dress would cooperate, we will be friends. Oh, I went to Old Navy and I saw that they have clothes that I can fit! I mean, REALLY fit, not stuff I can get into that's gonna be tight as anything. I wanna get some pants but Cheap ol me walked outwithout buying anything. I was gonna buy some purple flannel pjs, but my freakin card got rejected! I just called the stupid bank and they said I gots money there, and I know I have enough to cover $9! Damn Commerce straight to HELL!!! (if only they didnt have such yummy cherry lollipops...) I am so mad though.
I haven't tried finding a hubby yet. Can't be bothered to be honest. A good man is hard to find, especially one who meets my hardcore needs. He has to accept me and my dolls and my games and my addictions... He has to buy me munchos everyday when he comes home, and he has to let me keep my male friends, cause they're my boys, ya know? Hmm, what else... He has to be Muslim- did I mention that factoid? that's most important. he can't be tyler or Karim, cause they suck and are gay. Oh and they can't be from among the awlad min bakistan wa yaskun fi britania (the boys from pakistan who live in britain). They suck too. Oh, and they can't be Habib either, cause he dissed the twins, which is a definite HELL NALL, ya heard?... Hmm, what else? I don't know now, I'm beat. Until I write again...

My first confession of 2005

Happy new year or belated or whatever. Hell, who is happy? I'm not. I'm sick. physically as well as mentally. I mean, I nearly got a JOB, which is great, right? sure. But I find out that this guy is getting married in August. i need to stop listening to the lives of my friends and such, but I guess I cant help it. I have believe my own life was such a boring load of BS that I got into everyone else's. It always backfires. Then, Eid's coming up. GREAT! More depression. Maybe i should talk to my physician about all my depression, I mean, I meant to do it before but i lost my insurance card. I got a new one with all the new numbers so Im set. for a nervous breakdown. Crap and a half!
Okay moving along. Hi! It's a new year and I should try to change my life. but first, I need to get rid of my old demons. Oh, and I need to get married before August. That's when This guy I know is. I mean, it shouldnt be a race, but I'm crazy like that. Dammit, It's like Syria all over again. CURSES!!!! Oh right, but yeah, the main problem is that there is nobody in the running for my hand. So I've decided to seriously look. no more Tyleresqe guys either. It's all about serious potentials for me this year. hmm, but where DO I start looking? School? no, all the Males there are losers. The masjid? no, they all want 2pieces, like say women are pieces of chicken, ya know? Oh well, I will be on the lookout for potential husbands. If you see a random Muslim girl writing in a notebook, that's just me writing my notes on you. remember: I'm watching YOU!