Sad Confession

Hi again. I write this to you on a sad day. My cousin Thomas, passed away. He was 25.
"From Him We Come, and To Him We will Return"
It's weird, I just saw him last week, he looked kinda sick, but then, he has for a long time. He was walking and talking though. Then, today, he took my grandfather to the doctor's office, a few hours later, he was gone. I can't believe it. I mean, we were never really close, he's like 3 years older than me and always acted like he didn't wanna be bothered with me. He would do things that made me mad, things I am too sad to think about. When our grandmother died 2 years ago, I saw him at the funeral for all of like 10 minutes, but I wasn't thinking about his feelings, I was too into my own sadness. He never got over her death.
He always talked about being a chef, I think he liked to cook. Of course, since I wasn't trying to find out, I will never know. I kidna regret not being nicer to him, I looked at him as if he was a loser, that is the truth, I mean, he was 25, and practically a bum. I thought about maybe trying to help him, but decided it wasn't worth my time. I am 22, he was old enough to help himself. Consequently, he wasn't able to.
I will end this by saying: Rest in Peace Thomas Theodore Harmon, August 27, 1979- July 20, 2005.

Licensed to Confess

Hey all. I got my license!! it only took me 3 times, though the first 2 times, the guy was a freakazoid. Anyway, I am so happy! only problem is my mean ol' parents won't let me go anywhere. What was the point of rushing me if I can't leave town? Stupid I say!
In other news: there was an attack in London. Terrorists (may be Muslim, may be IRA, but they are still terrorists) blew up trains and subway stations or something in a few places during rush hour. Of course, "Al Qaeda" claimed responsibility allegedly, but now they claim they don't know. I swear man, this world is crazy. Why is it that everytime something happens, they blame Muslims? Why do Muslims do such messed up crap? They make the Islamic world as a whole look like idiots. You have the extremists saying one thing, the Liberals saying another, and still your average Muslim saying (if they say anything).
I guess you can say I am the average Muslim. I read the news, listen, watch, yet I say nothing. I sit back, saying they don't have it right, yet I don't say what is right. I stand among the people, shaking my head, saying prayers for the victims, yet I don't stand up and tell them this is not Islam. Well, I kinda do, but not really. I never bring forth evidence stating that what these people are doing is wrong. I remember after 9/11, I was looking in the Quran, and I found a verse that said something like, If you kill one of the the Children of Adam, it is as if you killed humanity, or something. The problem is, well there is 2. 1. I can't find it again, and 2. I don't know if I wanna be some quoting machine. I mean, I kinda look at those people and roll my eyes. I see that they are good, but sometimes, they can be annoying. I don't know, I guess they aren't that bad, they give Dawah, and I certainly am not good at it.
I am just rambling on, so I will stop. Please all, Make dua that these attacks stop. It is senseless and Muslims get hurt by it all.
Until I confess some more....