My first confession of 2005

Happy new year or belated or whatever. Hell, who is happy? I'm not. I'm sick. physically as well as mentally. I mean, I nearly got a JOB, which is great, right? sure. But I find out that this guy is getting married in August. i need to stop listening to the lives of my friends and such, but I guess I cant help it. I have believe my own life was such a boring load of BS that I got into everyone else's. It always backfires. Then, Eid's coming up. GREAT! More depression. Maybe i should talk to my physician about all my depression, I mean, I meant to do it before but i lost my insurance card. I got a new one with all the new numbers so Im set. for a nervous breakdown. Crap and a half!
Okay moving along. Hi! It's a new year and I should try to change my life. but first, I need to get rid of my old demons. Oh, and I need to get married before August. That's when This guy I know is. I mean, it shouldnt be a race, but I'm crazy like that. Dammit, It's like Syria all over again. CURSES!!!! Oh right, but yeah, the main problem is that there is nobody in the running for my hand. So I've decided to seriously look. no more Tyleresqe guys either. It's all about serious potentials for me this year. hmm, but where DO I start looking? School? no, all the Males there are losers. The masjid? no, they all want 2pieces, like say women are pieces of chicken, ya know? Oh well, I will be on the lookout for potential husbands. If you see a random Muslim girl writing in a notebook, that's just me writing my notes on you. remember: I'm watching YOU!