Happy confession

OH MY GOD!! I got accepted to Rowan University!! I am SO happy! That school has the best communications program in NJ, so I am happy as a drunk locked in a liquor store (Or a pill popper locked in a pharmacy. ) Man, this is awesome. Only problem is how am I ever gonna pay for this? InshaAllah, it will all work out. I am gonna file for Financial Aid again, hopefully we they will give me SOMETHING. Then I guess I gotta get a loan. I don't want to, but what can I do? Hey! maybe if I get Married, I can get something, or if I have a kid. yes, that is it, I shall get pregnant. Nall, I don't think that will work, since I don't have anyone in mind, plus, Can you say HARAM! Dag, I am so happy, it's confusing. I mean, I got paid, got accepted to Rowan, Alhumdulilah, today was a great day. Well, uh, yeah, great. I am tired now though, too much excitement for me. Until I confess once more...

Valentine's day confession

snappy Valentine's day all! My sister's Basketball team won! I am So happy, and it is the last game of the season! woohoo!!! Um, ya, so the day was cool, I saw 2 hotties (both history teachers though, blah) Oh and they are Muslim. They were my sister's teachers, (well, one was last year and the other is still her teacher). The problem is, I am SO shy, and well, me marrying a teacher is icky. Can you imagine, with my horrible dislike for them, I might crack a mean joke or something. Ohs well.
I've decided that my quest for love has led me back to the computer. Yes, Redford is my lover. Got a problem with it? TOO BAD!!! I love this guy, wait a sec while I give him a kiss- okay. He is so colorful and he never talks bad about me (he uh, doesn't talk at all). I wish real guys could be like that, *sigh* life is NO fair.
Me love antilove songs. and just wait, tomorrow I will pick up red candy! cherry here I come!! Okay, I am gonna go cry now. Feeling lonely and redford isn't helping much.
Odd confession I know, but today is an odd day.

The I hate work Confession

I am SO tired of working at my stupid job! The people who I serve are usually weirdos who are money hungry, yet they are dumb because they're losing money, idiots! Oh, and my coworkers mess stuff up. I had to deal with irate customers when I just got there, and today, I was ALL ALONE! I was SO tired and I was ready to cry. Damn place. Taxes are important, but I am just waiting for my REAL JOB. InshaAllah, I will get one soon.
Okay, enough about my adult life and on to my um, other "life". The red day that is about love is coming up soon, Monday in fact. I just found out I don't have to go to work, so I am SO not going :). My sister does have a basketball game though, so I might go there but there are probably gonna be no potentials there, which is gonna suck. (talk about ya run on sentences). I think this year will be difficult mainly because it was around this time last year that Tyler (that creetin) and I ended that thing we had. The SOB never said sorry for getting me in trouble, That loser. But ya, I really can't wait for the 15th, since that is the day the candy is on sale. I love red candy, it rocks yo.
So a few years back, actually my senior year, I wrote a song. I called it my anti-love song, entitled, "who needs love" (we all know I do.) So ya, here is a snippet of the lyrics,
"Who needs love
It's not fair
When you want it
It's not there
No matter how hard I look in the big big world,
I'm still the same unlucky girl."
I think this song describes all my feelings. I guess I will post it on Valentine's day, unless I actually am happy and have found someone. (like say THAT'll happen)
So I was thinking, the MSA Zone East conference thing is in NYC. I really wanna go. I mean, Muslims my age with lectures geared for people my age, ya, I SO wanna go. My mom said I need to go with someone, but I mean, I am 22, I can take care of myself. I can find a roomate on the net, right? InshaAllah, I REALLY wanna go. Anyone wanna be my roomate?

OTL confession

Well, Luckily Hell hasnt totally frozen over. The Smeagles LOST the Stupid Bowl! Im sorry, but 2 teams I hate were in it, and yes, I watched some of it, Even though I told myself I would not. Hey, I couldn't miss Paul McCartney Or however that dude spells his name. Yeah, the Skankriots beat the Smeagles. Stupid I tells ya, hardcore Stupidity.
Okay, moving along in my life... I called my friend. I feel bad about having beef with her. She is merely a hurt soul, ya know? Anyway, she's cool, and talking to her made my heart feel at ease. It was great! She's going through some tough times and such, but InshaAllah, it will all work out for her.
Now, on to my quest. She has been trying to get me married for like EVER. She knows my type and she looks out for me, but I don't know, I can't marry ANYONE, you know? Picky as I am, I don't think I will marry anyone anytime soon. Unless my one true love comes along, but how will I know? I mean, I have a name and a face but who's to say that He is the ONE, you know? What if I spent years dreaming about him and he sees me and doesn't like me. What if he DESPISES me or something? we mustn't think like that Lav, we must remain positive. Yes indeed.
Okay, this is a plea to him. If you're out there, send a sista a sign, you know? I mean, I'm waiting desperately for you, hurry up! Nall, I'm playing, still send me a sign!!
Well, until I confess again...