messed up birthday confession.

Happy Birthday Lavender. There at least SOMEONE said it. This has been the suckiest Birthday EVER! I mean, my team lost, the team I LOATHE won, I got nothing, but that damned sister of mine got stuff. I hate my family, especially the extended part, I didn't get what I wanted for dinner, I had to drive my pissy smelly aunt home, tis freakin blows. I need out. I have to or I will go mad. I mean, I cried earlier, and I know I cry a lot, but this was sincere. I hate it. Nothing ever goes my way, and my car smells awful! It's almost like everyone forgot today was special to me. freakin idiots! I hate it all! I need to go away, maybe I will get married to the next person who looks appealing, or even the next person who asks. (is there really a differnce?) I have been so depressed since Thomas died, and it wasn't because of his death, just the repercussions. Geezer movin in, Pissy soming every sunday. Freakin sucks. Ok, I'm off to go cry myself to sleep.

Pre-Birthday Confession

Greetings readers. How are you all? I am broke. i have like NO money, and i just got paid. It totally sucks. I have lost my wisdom teeth too, got them pulled. I think they are healed now. It only took 2 weeks.
In other news, I am just days away from the big 2-3. Yes, my 23rd birthday is on Sunday. I am cool, I haven't a clue what I am gonna do, or even who I will be with. It sucks. I am another year older and no closer to getting anywhere. No man, no prospect of a man, ruined my chances of getting the only man who talks to me, sucks completely.
Oh, in other news, I might be going to Arizona. Not that I want to, but my dad is thinking about taking a family trip. like say I like hanging with my family. I mean, I am only going to get away from here. It is gonna be around Christmas time. I hope we fly. My dad said there is a big Muslim community there, I hope so, I need to broaden my horizons. Shoot, I am getting old.
There was a rape at my school. Right next to the parking lot where I park my car. I went tonight, and was scared shitless, so I parked next to 322. come to find out we didnt have class. I wasn't mad, I just walked back to my car and came home. I was afraid of walking back alone that late (after like 8:45pm) I don't have any friends to walk me to my car either. It sucks. I am thinking about being more socialable, but I am SO shy. Oh well.
There is this Muslim Sorority. I wanna join. I have a decent GPA and I need to network. I need friends. then maybe I will be happier.
So Seth and I are friends again. i guess. He and Tara still kinda flirt, but it isn't nearly as bad as it was. In fact, I stole Seth's ball today. I am a total geek, i know, but he deserved it, he was being a weirdo.
Ok I am tired, so I am off.
Until I confess some more...