Wellness Confession

Hi all. I amSO much better. Yep, I sure am. I graduated, which was hot- in more ways than one. We were in the sun for SO long, I gotta tan, and we black girls don't tan that much, ya know? Work is going great. I finally got my bonus from my old tax job. I gots 250 dollars! not much, but you know how us poor folk do, we NEED money so we will take any money we can get.
I Saw that raggedy Star Mars movie last night. It was crap! The freakin Geeks were CLAPPING and crap, dumb geeks. I finally had to yell Geeks all loud at them. I was annoyed. The dialogue was awful too, I mean, sheesh, would it KILL him to learn how to write- I mean George Lucas. Oh well. I was talking with my sisters the whole time, talkin crap about it, then, when the purple was on, I shut up. when it went away, I yelled NO! hopefully, nobody got why I was sad. Star Wars Geeks.
So I went to the Circus. I survived being next to a clown. And the fear of an elephant attack. To be honest, the elephants were cute, but shh, secret. I missed a lot because I was antsy in the dark. The lady at the consession stand was a real bitch, I wanted to punch the fat pig in the mouth, but swine anything is haram. ok, I'm mean, but shoot, that cow was wrong.
Well, I'm happy so I am gonna go enjoy it. until I confess some other stuff...

Congratulations confession

Okay, I have been away from this blog trying to get my thoughts together. I know what my problem is. I am ultra jealous. Of what, who knows, it's not important. Now, what IS important is the fact that I finally talked to the cute guy at work. He's 24, way younger than I thought. Still, he is so cool. I still get nervous around him, since I am me, but I feel better now. Its weird, at break time, we can talk and stuff, but if he comes near me I shut up and act like I dont notice him. Like say I don't, I stare at him like a love sick 12 year old. *sigh*.
In Islamic news, I am no closer to finding someone than I was last time I wrote. This guy was talkin to me, but EWW, he was smokin a black and mild, but he was supposed to be a salafi. He was trying to talk that talk, and use arabic but he sounded like a total fool. It was funny. I havent been out otherwise. This guy at Costco is cute, but I cant remember where I have seen him before. I know Costco, but where else? Hmmm. Mystery indeed.
My graduation is Saturday. The breakfast is tomorrow. I am SO nervous, since I don't KNOW anyone from school. Okay, maybe I do but not many people. I am like the girl who is there but nobody cares. (hey! that rhymed) Anyway though I am going, since the rehearsal is also tomorrow, but I will most likely sit alone, and just be alone. So sad, I know. Maybe some of my former classmated who I was friendly with will take pity upon me or something. I hope.
Well, I need to explain my last entry. See, something happened and I was feeling down. I mean, I was on the brink of checking myself into a mental facility, that is how bad I felt. I still feel sad, but now that I have spoken to the guy from work, I don't feel as bad. InshaAllah, there will be a Muslim guy out there who is nice like that.
Why is it that most of the sweetest guys are not Muslim? I mean, would it KILL a Muslim man to be nice once in a while? they always wanna look down on someone. Or they wanna date you, Sheesh, are there any Muslim guys out there who are like me? Perhaps there is one out there, who is Muslim, but Only god knows. Sheesh. This whole falling in love thing will be my end man, Im tell you. If I dont either get married or start talkin to someone deeply quick, I will be forced to take drastic measures. I dont know what they are yet, but I think it will be bad...