Sorry so late confession

Hi all. I know I am SO late, but I have been SO busy. I have a second job, doing taxes again. It totally sucks, but I need money I guess, and I am a full time student, on top of my full time job. I have no time really to myself, but I figure I would update you all on my so called life.
Seth and Tara were being mean, or so I thought, but it's all good now. Though me and Seth are at odds over everything. The freak said I look scary! He said I overreact too much, which is true, but ever since he found out that I like him, he has been different. Tara said that he thinks I hate him, but I am totally infatuated with him. I thik about him constantly. It's like, why doesn't he like me? if he ignors me (which is like, all the time) I feel like I did something. I know I annoy him, but he says the meanest things to me, and I am sensitive, I can't take a joke from him very well. Tara told me today that I give her comic relief. that isn't right! I am supposed to get comic relief from everyone else at work! apparently, me and Seth together bring it. I don't see how. We argue a lot, I get nervous and ramble when he is around me, then I critique the conversation when he leaves. Tara just laughs. I feel so bad about it, but Seth makes me feel different than I ever felt before. I can't explain it.
Well, I gotta go, I have a class. Until I confess again...