short, Jealosly Confession

Well, I am back to hating people. Why am I so jealous? I guess because I never had anyone really like me. yes, I Lavender I.V. Blackwell have low self esteem. Not a big shocker, but now it is getting bad. Today, Seth, who I am like THIS close to stabbing in the throat, let Tara feel his chest. WAs it to piss me off, Hells ya! I mean, why do that schoosh around me? he does all kinds of things to irk me. He ignors me, or gives me these stares likeyou give someone who is a total idiot. I know I shouldn't let it bother me, but I can't help it! I don't think I like him anymore yet I can't get him off my mind. Why can't there be some Muslim guy who comes to save the day? Oh that's right, Muslim guys suck, they never care about people like me, since I look like an old maid. Dammit! I am 22 damn near 23 and this is what my life has become? I'm off tho, I have a class. Just needed to rant about this.