devestation confession

Greetings all. How goes it? Well, I am ok. I mean, I have to be, after the catastrophe in the Gulf region. Not the Arab gulf, the US gulf. The effects of Hurricane Katrina are horrific. I never thought I would be seeing refugees, US citizens living in the conditions like those down there. I mean, I am kinda freaked out, since I am in such a bad mental state, but I mean, I am here , safe. Babies are dying though, people are murdering people, there are people starving, drowning, getting ill, it is all too much. I can hardly watch it anymore.
Okay, let me stop talkingabout that.
I want a baby. Yes, this is a wild and somewhat outlandish, but it is the truth. What is this blog? a confession and this is a total confession. I want a baby, either by adoption or gettng pregnant. Of course, for the latter a husband is needed, or at least a sperm donor. What would I look like getting knocked up outta wedlock though? So, i guess I need a husband. Oh, but where to get one? I don't go to where Muslims are, and I am not going on any blind meetings. There is a someone I would LOVE to marry, he is totally awesome, but not Muslim. Why are all thegood ones like that? Now he knows I like him because I am a total idiot and I act like a dumb middle school kid. Oh well. I'm off
Until I confess again...