Im an loser confession

Well, I did it, and I feel like an idiot. I told the person how I feel and have heard nothing. In a way I am glad, since this gives me time to think of an excuse for the text. (Im, a punk, sue me.) I have been off the internet since then, I needed time away since the net is my downfall. Every time I get on here, I fall for a net guy. I am insanely pitiful. I need to go out into the real world and meet REAL guys. Only problem is I am so shy. I can see the hottest guy and I lower my gaze quick. (Islamically, I am supposed to do this.) The problem lies in the fact that I wanna get married. I never go anywhere that decent Muslim guys go to, and the masjid doesn't count because the ones there are not my type. I know my type and they don't hang out at the masjid. Oh man, that sounded SO bad. What I mean is that they aren't phony Salafi types. Those are the kinds of guys I can't stand. Their talk is peppered with these arabic catch-phrases that aren't even pronounced right, like "you ain't on the Haq." Eww, they sound so icky. Plus I wouldn't like to be married to a guy who either won't met me work and go to school or who will be living off of MY paycheck. Not that they are all like that, just the ones I know, They are annoying as hell. and the swimming in black look is SO not me. It's like, wear some color, dag. brighten up your wardrobe. you can wear niqab, but PLEEEEEEZE wear something other htan black. Purple is awesome, it brightens up my life, it will help them a lot, yeah. Sorry, I am just mad at myself, and I am taking it out on others. I need to sleep this off. so until I confess some REALLY deep stuff...