yesterday's confession

Okay, so yesterday, I went to work in the morning, like a good girl, ya know? well, I thought I was alone in the office, but there is some kinda animal in the ceiling. EWW, it was running around, scaring customers, I see why nobody did their taxes while I was there. The nasty thing kept pooping on the lights too. I wasn't supposed to go in today, but my manager called and asked me if I could cover for someone, I agreed, I mean, I AM getting paid for it. Oh, that stalker guy wasthere, but he didnt come in, THANK GOD! I was driving away and I saw him pushing carts in the street. Call me evil, I seriously thought of running him over. I'm sorry but he is getting to be a pain. Today, I had to go in, but then the supervisor said I should leave, It was a mess. Now I am tired. My paycheck was low, I am PISSED too, I mean, it was $151.55, they forgot about my training!!! Stupid people. The only reason I was gonna go to that thing was because I was getting PAID, stupid!!
So anyway, I have been thinking about marriage. Only because my Friend has been telling me about stuff. If I were married, I can shut her up, tell her stuff about my hubby. Silly things HE does. *sigh* The chances of me finding Mr. Right are extreme. I never go anywhere that eligible Bachlors would be, The masjid is SO not cool, ya know? None of the guys I like go there. This one guy, he is very attractive, MashaAllah. I found out he is married. Crushed my whole world, I tell ya! Okay, maybe not, but I was shocked. I wonder though, this one brother, he is studying for his doctorate at Princeton. i spoke to him on the phone, and all that. He was awesome, and SO my type. But, my dad said he is engaged. I wanted to know if it was to this girl I know, but we werent really friends in Syria so me writing her, wait, I DID write her and the cow never wrote me back. I bet she IS married to my dream guy. Oh crud, now I am crying. IT'S NOT FAIR!!!
Okay, I have gotten over the spilt milk. I apoligize too. She is now a cow (though she DID try to tell this girl I know she couldn't like the same guy as her...) Maybe I am meant to wait. Perhaps the ONE is really out there, waiting for me, and I should be patient. It's just so hard. I am nearly 23, and I am starting a major university. (InshaAllah). I need the money, but I can't get it because my parents make too much apparently. If I was married, I could get money because I wouldn't be a dependent. It's sad that I would consider getting married for that reason, but it is the truth. Of course, I want companionship, and I won't marry just ANYBODY. (Sorry Habib) It's like, only the right guy will do. I am weird like that. Oh well. Until I confess again...