Year End Confession

Well, Another year has come to an end. I have to say, I thought 2004 was going to be a whole lot different. I mean, when it started, I was engaged, not happily, but engaged nonetheless. I thought I would finally get married and all my problems would be over. Boy, was I ever wrong. See, while I liked Tyler, my then fiance (I guess, I mean, my parents didnt know about him at first) I even kinda loved him a little, I didn't really see myself being married to him. I knew it was wrong to lead him on, but I figured, I could grow to love him. the fact that he seemed to love me was good enough for me. He was anti everything I loved (name brand clothing, fast food, anything cool) but I was willing to put up with it, because I thought I could grow to love him. After all, he was really nice and seemed to love me. I never had that so who was I to judge? He started reading my email which I told him to do, since my parents would ban me from the computer (they still do sometimes, but oh well). I found out he would do it when I didnt ask him. He would get mad that other guys would email me. Like old friends and such. It's like dude, they were my friends before YOU came around so go away. He would get mad,but I thought it was sweet, since I thought it was because he loved me so. When he wrote me about an email my best friend sent me, I knew he had gone too far. I basically played a trick that got him pissed but he deserved it. I emailed myself from another account and pretended I was a guy and stuff, needless to say he was pretty mad. Good though, he got ME mad. I was sick of him then and I didnt want to marry him, but my dad would let me end the thing, since he said I had taken it so far already. Of course, by then he was mad at me and felt he couldn't trust me anymore, so he told my dad he didn't want to marry me anymore. Oh then he lied on me BIG time. He used my old emails and told my dad what was in them. My friends and I joke around a lot and he told my dad like say they were truth. I got in a lot of trouble because of him. I couldn't believe that crap.
I was depressed about this for about a month. I still had school to worry about so I just put my mind to that. Taking 5 classes 2 days a week was hard but I did well enough. I didn't let Tyler get to me. My parents were mad though and that hurt a lot. My dad thought it was all true and I couldn't tell him it wasn't because Tyler said it was true. Oh, and what also pissed me off about him was the fact that he stole my totally wicked name. See, he was calling himself Uday, which is fine, but I didn't like it. I said I like Khalid Jihad, and he adopted that, and is using that name to this day! I mean really, isn't there a way I can sue or something? Oh well, he got it now, the freak.
Also in 2004, I found out a lot of stuff. First, this guy I went to school with got murdered like 2 years ago, and I never knew. Then, my friend has a 1 year old kid, never knew she was pregnant. Out of my 8th grade class, I'm the only girl without a kid, interesting. Then, that friend with the one year old, her brother got killed in a police shootout. Just before Ramadan. Then, during Ramadan, a guy from my class killed a guy at a club. It's like, what's goin on man? we went to an ISLAMIC SCHOOL. It's so sad.
In terms of school, I went ALL YEAR, no break. but I think my lowest grade was a C. I got 2, one in precalculus and one in Media, which was my best class, damned papers. I like school, only 2 more classes then I graduate! yea!
In all, this was a down year. I mean, that whole Tyler thing messed me up. School was an up, but not very much. Maybe next year, 2005, things will look up. I sure hope so.