my (say it ain't so) hip hop confession!

Well, I have to confess. I usually listen to Pop music, and alternative, a bit of punk rock, and sometimes jazz and r&b. But lately, I 've been listening to the Rap station! I mean, I LOVE snoop Dogg! I mean, "Drop it like it's hot" is my SONG! I actually downloaded it, but, shhh, don't tell. Then, Destiny's Children, who I HATE got that song "Soldier" I mean, I don't even LIKE thugs, but when I walk into a room I feel like shouting "I see some Soldiers in here!" (hey, I go to school near a military base too, that might be a reason) I spent so long trying to get that thug mentality out of my system only to have it creep back in! AAAAAGH! When I was dealing with that guy Tyler, he said I sounded white normally, (what does THAT mean?) but then whenever I was around my cousin Adrian, Tyler said I sounded Black and ghetto (is that supposed to be a BAD thing?) I can't help being the way I am. I am Black, but I am not ghetto, and I don't want to be. I do not LIKE acting ghetto, and I don't like liking all this rap music. WHY ME! When I write my songs, (some of which I may share at a later time) they aren't raps, but country songs I think. they're depressing. Oh well, that's just me. gotta go. Just needed to get that off my chest. until I confrss again...