feeling better confession

Today I am feeling a lot better. I did not take any pills that night (except the ones I am supposed to take). I was just stress and depressed. I get that way during th holidays. Doesn't matter what kind, I was depressed during Eid, I get depressed during Christmas, It might carry over into Kwanzaa, I don't know. I don't know why I get that way. I guess it's because things don't seem to agree with me. I'm a weird person and people don't get me, and that upsets me and triggers mental breakdowns. I am a big crybaby, I always have been, and I think I always will be. I cry over anything. Like, yesterday, I cried because the guy at the driver's test told my dad I was mean to him. (which by the way was a total lie!) I cry when I don't get my way, when I get my way, I cried when I had to go to Syria, when I had to leave Syria, when I had to go back to Syria. I even cried when I got a job. I am just a big bucket of tears according to my mother. Seriously though, I am fine. My real problem is that I let people get into my head and make me upset. I am a dreamer and I live in a fantasy world that I need to come out of. The problem is, I am not ready to just yet.